…i love my kids
i love my kids, i really do. they are both gone now but margaret is still with me at home. we have been together now for over 31 years and i really am glad that she is still with me. and that is the way it is suppose to be.
27 years ago, one week from today, brett came to live with us. i remember that saturday night so well. but he now lives in boulder, co and he and marissa are expecting their first little one in sept. and now stef got married last sat. so it is margaret and me for the first time for 27 years. we are now alone but i have no regrets because that is the way it all started. me and my best friend, the love of my life, the one GOD chose for me, margaret.
i told her the other night, that i was at peace with our kids now both gone but it would have been totally different if it would have been her leaving. that would have been a totally different story.
thanks margaret for being the best friend i have ever had and the only wife i have ever wanted. we still have some great years ahead don’t we?
i love our kids, but you are my life. thanks GOD for giving her to me.
March 31st, 2006 at 9:38 pm
Bill,
I’ve had the last 5 months or so to get use to the idea that my boy was really moving out. I thought for sure that I was going to struggle with what I had presumed would be a difficult transition for me. Andrew and I are close. He is my son but over the years he became my right hand and my partner in many aspects of ministry. He is also very protective of me especially in regards to my health. So why didn’t the sadness come? Where is the regret and the black moods? I can honestly say that I feel no loss. I feel like a sacred vow I had taken has been fulfilled. I feel like my heart has been enlarged by Stefanie not diminished in any way at all. I feel like the childless woman spoken off prophetically in Isaiah 54:1-3 :
1″Sing, O childless woman! Break forth into loud and joyful song, O Jerusalem, even though you never gave birth to a child. For the woman who could bear no children now has more than all the other women,” says the LORD. 2″Enlarge your house; build an addition; spread out your home! 3For you will soon be bursting at the seams. Your descendants will take over other nations and live in their cities.
I find joy and fulness in Andrew and Stefanie and as our families entertwine I find more blessings in our friendships and relationships than I could not have ever imagined. This scripture really wraps it up nicely:
Psalms 133:1 - How wonderful it is, how pleasant, when brothers live together in harmony! (NLT)
Blessings on your head! Mazel Tov!
Nate